Long time, no see!

I have been very negligent with the blog, I know. Well, it is mostly for me to write things off my chest/mind. A diary for me, and I am happy I have people to share my life with it. But sometimes I just do not have anything positive or fun to write about, so I skip it completely. Might change, might not.


Either way, I have gone away from my red hair, what?! I know! It is shocking. Yes, you did, indeed, read that correctly. I am trying to achieve a brown/gray ombre. Have only gotten to the part where I have ash blonde ombre with dark brown hair at roots. But getting there, will get there even. I like it, I kind of look my age now, difference in hair colour does so much.

I also enhanced the photos a bit, to show off the colour difference, because my camera does not want to pick up subtle changes… seeing I dyed my hair red for six or more years it is really hard to get gray in the first colouring. So we went for ash blonde and I was really unhappy about it in the beginning because it felt like it didn’t really show. But now I kind of like it, it is subtle with gray-ash blonde and with pastel orange hinting through.

I also improved my eyebrow game, quite decently I would say. Learned some new things to not make them so harsh and bold. I like bold eyebrows, but I am now fading my inner parts and it works wonders.

I quit nicotine completely, a big step for me! I started working out, just now I did a 30 min run in and out of Makkum, 2.5 km with 1 km running completely with willpower and strength.

Michelle is gone for two weeks, been gone now for seven days, to visit her new girlfriend or whatever you want to call their relationship. Seems shaky and she seems to not be satisfied with the current state. Not my problem to be honest, I do care for her but I need to care for myself too. Can’t go back to just not be an individual anymore.

Well, moving to Sweden is finally final, I am leaving the Netherlands the 21st July and will be living in Gothenburg! With a really old friend of mine, he will be housing me for a couple of months until I have gotten everything sorted out. I am so grateful towards him for it and I am looking forward to it. Gothenbuuuuuurg!

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Bubbles and Butterflies~

This might be a bit different to what I usually post. But I have been talking to for a while now a very kind and caring human being. This person makes me so happy and fluttery, that I just… could evaporate into a small cloud of happiness-bubbles. He is the calm to my frantic, his charisma and personality is top tier and his looks, goddamn… I seem to always go for people out of my league. I am just so intense-happy about that he seems to feel the same way, just enjoying each others company. Talking until we fall asleep, wake up in the morning still in a call and just being able to say good morning to each other, playing games together, having fun mixed with serious chats… we seem to fit so well. The humour we share is so dark and hilarious.

I would not label this yet, until I have met him and experience real life together. But it seems to be going in a very good direction, so we (both) are not in any kind of rush. Right now we are just enjoying each others company, all the other fluttery and bubbly feelings and thoughts are just bonuses to whatever we have going on. For someone a bit younger than me he is very mature, he is four years younger and has his life more sorted than I have my socks. Haha! Well, not that it is a bad thing – we both have our whole lives ahead of us, I am just a bit sad I started a bit late to work on my own future (but this is not about that!).

I might end up flying from Amsterdam to Gothenburg, which means that we can meet already at that point – iiiiih! Makes me blush thinking about it. I am actually looking forward to solve and settle my debts/situations in Sweden. A tiny, teeny bit anxious and overwhelmed still, but who wouldn’t be? I just have to rely a bit on others to help me get started, I am pretty horrible at relying on people, so it will be a learning experience!

Michelle seems happier too, she is crushing on a German girl, which seems very kind and caring. I am happy she is also working on herself, to become the person she wants to be.