Post-It notes, Revelations Online & a tiny Update

Michelle found this nifty little “plug-in” for the computer, it has been so handy with my forgetfulness. Stick-it notes but on your screen, even if I would write it down in a calendar or on a paper I would forget about it sadly. Future plans:

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Started playing Revelations Online with Frederik, might be some more in the guild that are interested. Would be fun to play all of us. I really enjoy it, but I still have the gaming curse. I get bored so easily, so do not want to end up overplaying it and get bored of it.


My mood is still being shit, had to ask Renny to leave early today, around 15min. But she was fine with it, very understanding. She just wants to see and check up on me mostly. I am glad that she seems to work with more basketcases like me, that can’t deal with real life. I don’t get how it isn’t tiring. Going to try and change medication or something.

I really hope I am able to sleep tonight. My body is getting used to not sleeping much… I go to bed at reasonable times, I end up just sitting staring into the wall or laying down staring into the ceiling and that is usually when the anxiety grips me. Which makes it impossible for me to relax and sleep. I keep on being overwhelmed by this sense of dread. That I can’t explain. I really dislike not being able to explain it properly. Then when I finally pass out – because even though I can’t sleep, I am deadtired throughout the whole day – I sleep very restless and very little, and my body is getting used to it… I do not know how to combat this.

Today I have felt like not having any kind of social contact, which is one of the reasons I did not want to meet up with Renny. The anxiety and self loathing is right at the surface and it feels like I will say something wrong or untimed and it will crack my all so “cheery” facade.

Oh, on another much lighter note: 

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Day Z Adventures #1

We have been playing a lot of Day Z, but I will start showing off adventures we did with friends. This time Drudrutt joined us and we managed to survive a very long time. I will write small paragraphs “roleplaying” as my character to make it way more immersive.


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After scavenging weapons, food, water and odd items at the coast we decided as a team to run towards the military strips/airbases and towns more inland. We found a functioning car, sadly the tires were all ruined so we could not activate it and drive off into the sunset. It was heavy rain falling down upon us so we had to seek shelter.

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Luckily for us there was a house close by, we chopped some firewood and decided to heat up in the already scavenged kitchen. The rain stopped but we decided to stay a while to let our clothes dry up.

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We were discussing where to go next, we decided to head even more inland to a town called Rorka (the town names are all in Russian and it is the Russian pronounciation of it).

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We ran for a very long time until we came across three other guys that were fixing a car. We decided to lay low and see if we could pick them off to steal the car. They were probably pulling a joke on this poor man, they kept on driving away from him while he tried to get into the car. Little did they know that they doomed him…

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The car circled back to try and find us with the dead mans’ mates. We hid behind a small wall, looking to find the drop on the driver. It was very intense!

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Michelle decides to make a run for the gunner that jumped out of the car, it was very late at night so we agreed to it – not seeing it as a bad idea.

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But it was a very, very bad idea! I am left alone for survival, having been shot multiple times – I tried to run to their unconscious bodies with epipens to revive them quickly, but got met with a man standing with a gun over Michelles’ body – my world is slowly becoming gloomier. I patched myself up hiding in a bush and I had to stay there for a while aiming for the car that was looking for me. I do not know how many people were alive from their side, but both Michelle and Drudrutt did get some shots in on both of them! I am too scared to move so I wait until the sound of the car can’t be heard anymore.

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I ran on the outskirts of the town, keeping an eye out for both the car and other humans. The dead can wait, the humans are way more dangerous. There is no dishonor or disgrace in surviving in a world made cruel by people that give you no other choice than to become a bandit, even if you always just wanted to be a travelling trade merchant.

Skyforge Classes! (costumes)

I enjoy the game Skyforge and more or less my blog is about me, what I like, how I live and my opinions. So why not also write down about the games I enjoy? Yay, nice going Nela, you are on fire!

Anyway, the class- and progression system is really in-depth in Skyforge, you do not get the classes instantly, you have three beginning classes:

From left to right: Lightbinder, Paladin and Cryomancer with respective costume. Support, tank and Damage Dealer. These are given in the beginning, you can even play the whole game as either one of them but you can also grind yourself into new classes! A small sneakpeak of the Ascension Atlas (progression) system – it is so much bigger than this image can tell, but couldn’t get all of it and this is JUST the upper level (there is one class specific atlas ascension page too…):

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The darker blue line is just showing me the path to Slayer. Which is another class – you are able to try out all classes in the training room and see where you want to go if you now want to change into a class you enjoy more. And while trying them out and finishing the training program for one or all classes you get the costume the class wear! Gear is not a matter in this game, weapon and rings seem to be the bigger deal to hunt gear for. You have costumes instead. And here are the costumes for all the different classes besides the three already shown (in total it is 13 classes with the beginner ones, these are costumes by the way – not classes, so my character is a lightbinder you might see that by the scepter):

  • Archer
    • Bows, bows, bows and moooore bows! Very quick and agile combatstyle, loved it when I tested it out. Second class I will be going for after Slayer.
  • Monk
    • This one just made me rethink the whole concept of monk playstyles, it is so fast and so rewarding.
  • Berserker
    • If you ever want to be a class that holds this massive weapon while doing it in a pretty semifastslow fashion and doing heavy damage… this is for you!
  • Knight
    • Tank, pretty cool playstyle, felt like I was a DPS when I tried it out but all those defensive abilities should have made a tankalarm go off – I was probably a bit too slow to understand it, wink~.
  • Gunner
    • If archer is about bows, gunner is all about heavy machinery. You literally carry this huge ass minigun/rocket launcher/plasma canon. Pretty quick combat but requires you to be stationairy quite often.
  • Kinetic
    • Energy manipulation, straight out of fantasy sci-fi, was pretty darn fun.
  • Alchemist
    • Support, you are a half-mad scientist with access to an arsenal of corrosive chemical compounds and invigorating elixirs. Pretty darn cool, plus you got tentacles coming out of your portable aclhemy laboratory that spits acid!
  • Necromancer
    • This felt really slow to me, but it might not be for others. You use really flashy spells, cool summons and you sacrifice life to deal damage.
  • Slayer
    • My favourite, so quick combat and you feel more than a rogue, you feel like an assassin!
  • Witch/warlock
    • Dark sorcery, felt like a DOT (damage over time) class, you have sustained DPS and consumable burst, you run debuffs on your targets all day!

And last but not least, a brief explaination about the classes you can choose from at the start:

  • Lightbinder
    • Support, increases ally damage and shielding them from incoming. They do great damage though, you do not feel like “just a support”.
  • Paladin
    • Tank, they can spamshield themselves, they do a great amount of damage and they have very cool looking abilities.
  • Cryomancer
    • This is literally a frostmage, they can move while doing a ton of damage and can crowd control well!

I also enjoy food; today we ate tacos, and… instead of any other meat replacer I put mushrooms (champignons to be specific) on it. It had the flare that it was missing, don’t take me wrong they taste REALLY good with just the vegetables in them but they did gain another good taste with the mushies. We did forget the red onion though, bah. Well, we know that until the next time, woopwoop!

The chopping board misses the red onion, it looks so empty.

My engagement ring is laying next to it, I am always careful to not grease it down~.

Birthday Nela~

Today is the day my mother gave birth to me, the day that we all know as a birthday, the day that is significant because… what? Meh, it is like any other day to be honest. I am just one year older than what I was last year on this day.

I ordered a second batch of manga books for my birthday though! Wihoo! Kuchibiru Tameiki Sakurairo and Suki tte Ii na yo Volume 2! English titles: Kisses, Sigh and Cherry Blossom Pink – Say I Love You Vol. 2. Will show images in next blogspot tomorrow, when they arrive, yay!

I also received “Overwatch: Origins” from Michelle earlier this month and two other mangabooks (which is in another blogpost already). We are going to celebrate my birthday with Michie’s mother and maybe her mothers husband – depends on if he is going biking or not.

Going to the barber tomorrow for Michelle, we are looking into this kind of :hairdo:. With more layers in the hair and bangs ending above her eyebrows. She will look so good!

I have some American friends on Facebook and the links about the public restroom law show me that they are very open-minded, just like most people in Europe – which make me happy. But when you start reading comments, it really… infuriates me how much some Americans really enforce the stereotype that we Europeans have of them: A – they are inbred hillbilly bigots, no matter where they live. B – most religious Americans are 100% A. C – that America is living still in the dark ages. Most comments I see (not only about the public restroom matter) on any kind of topic regarding peoples’ happiness, show that most religious Americans or religious people overall do not wish for everyone’s happiness. And here I thought that religion teaches love and compassion, boy I seem to be oh so wrong.

If I have offended some American readers, I am very sorry, obviously if you are reading this blog you are not the A – type. Sadly this is the stereotype we have, we grew up with this stereotype about America and Americans, and sadly, on public places such as FB/articles/other websites the Americans that scream the loudest really helps to further this stereotype on. I know that a lot of Europeans are not as open-minded and I know that a lot of Americans are open-minded, but in both cases, they are minorities. I would say the European example being the better option out of both.

I have to stop reading 9gag comments at the same time, more 9gaggers than what I want to believe upvoted a comment saying that sexualities are genders. My whole world is crumbling to pieces, I did not know I was this misinformed! Sarcasm aside, 9gag is a fucking shithole.

It saddens me to see that so many people still believe that love is unnatural, that being who you truely are is unnatural and that it is alright for them to comment hideous things about people because of it.

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I can’t even…

MICHMOTH IS ALIVE!

This game has the greatest atmosphere ever, it took me days to venture out of the safe shallows and into the mushroom forest and then further into the koosh zone… I kept on hearing noises and wanted to turn back soooo badly. But I finally got my seamoth upgrade station and MICHMOTH IS ALIIIIIVE! 

Also yes, Michmoth is bright red, will always be bright red, because that is Michie’s favourite colour.