Well, hello.

I am back, after a turmoiled filled month away from the blog, I am again back at it. I am in a much better place now than I was before. Events have gone past with a lot of hello’s, goodbye’s and neutral standpoints. Oh, what’s that? Pointform?! Yes.

  • Me and Michelle are still living together, preparing to move back to Sweden during summer. She will probably travel with me, then go on a vacation to meet some friends in Sweden. Will probably be pretty fun, just need to invest in an ID – got a lot of information of it, just need to book a time at the Swedish embassy.
  • Life is a bit easier now, at least regarding living together. Much less annoyance and passive aggressivity. There are sometimes where feelings flare up again, but it is very fleeting and not meant to be acted upon. Don’t really see a reason why to initiate anything, the only reason they flare up is because you stay close to each other and you have a history together. So you just have to take it with a pinch of salt.
  • I got a bed now, that is a big plus.
  • Me and Frederik is not really happening, it was a couple of horrible weeks where I woke up all the time crying and missing him intensely. We just did not seem to want to go in the same direction, I showed in major ways how serious I was about it and meh. Sometimes it goes through, sometimes it doesn’t. And this was obviously one of the latter situations.
  • But now it is a bit better, I don’t really “allow” myself to think of him, I surround myself with fun things instead. A lot of laughter and movement helps!
  • My sister is pregnant and getting married this summer! That’s amazing. I am going to be an aunt – again!
  • I got dropped from the therapyinstitution, but I think it is for the better. Instead of me taking up the time from someone else that they can help much more. I just am done with trying to find ways of “fixing” it. I firmly believe everyone lives with anxieties/depression, just that they live with it instead of focusing only on it.
  • So that is what I have started doing, living with it. I go outside, I exercise, I go to the store, I push my own boundaries more. Can’t be bothered trying to find a “miracle”-cure.

Well, that is about it. Pointform has been made. Might start updating more often, need to change my domain name too, ridiculous name is ridiculous.

Double morales

Michelle thinks I am selfdestructing and ruining many friendships with the debates about veganism with them. I see why she thinks that way and why she wants to protect me from it. But most of the time, I genuinely hope that by discussing it at least there is a little seed that has sprouted. Unless the recipent is as dense as a wet towel. Which many people are.

Well, to protect myself and the few friendships I have left, I won’t go into the whole “love is not compatible with killing” arguements. Even though I find it genuinely retarded to believe you can love and care for someone and then just kill it because “I like the taste”.

Either way, if the subject would have been anything else than veganism… let’s say transphobia, homophobia or even feminism I would have been applauded by many and encouraged to continue my social justice warrior ways. But no, when it comes to a subject that lets others realize that they are not the only ones living on this planet and should care for the billions of animals that loses their lives based on a consumption that we humans do not need… yea, then I am the bad guy because I offend peoples’ foods.

I will just leave this here:

  • There are thousands of alternatives to meat, dairy and egg. You are just lazy to not research it. Oh, you don’t care because you like the taste? I am glad, the taste is spices, which you can literally recreate.
    • Oh, meat is easy to come by and vegan food is bland? What do you think vegans eat, grass? Just google vegan bbq, vegan dinner, vegan lunch etc, you will see millions of recipes that look better and are not restricted around a piece of carcass. When you remove the “my dish needs to be centered around a dead someone” factor you are open to a million of options.
  • All the nutrients found in meat have other sources. If your body can not take up pure supplements you’d be darned that it can not take up the filthy protein from animals, because surprise, surprise(!) protein is not the only thing you take up from a dead body, you also take up the bad toxins which your body rejects. But tell me more how you suddenly came over a PhD in nutrient values.
    • 90% of vegans have better nutrient values when they become vegan than when they were meat eaters.
  • You make it how you want to make it. You want to be an unhealthy fat vegan? Go for it, you have a ton of cakes, fat food etc. You want to be a body builder vegan? Go for it, you probably will get better results and feel better than the typical meat body builder. You want to be a normal vegan? Be that then.

I just need to find vegan friends.

How to cover that pesky beardshadow! #mtf #trans*

We recently discovered a better way of covering 5 o’clock shadow on Michie, and we had way more improvements with it than with just padding on more and more foundation to try and hide it. I will walk you through it step by step, it might not come as news for you but for some that reads it might be a game changer!

First, you need to cover your 5 o’clock beardshadow with a lipstick, a matte one. Now you wonder “but why lipstick?”, apparently there is pigment in the lipstick that will hide the grayish/blueish tone of your shadow really well under foundation. We tried a bright red lipstick, no glitter or shimmer, just a normal one. But I recommend an orange-towards-the-beige one, we had issues with a very pinkish tone with the foundation and had to apply three layers to go back to natural face colour.

It does not need to be a very thick layer, just draw some lines with the lipstick and use a make up sponge or pad to pull it out to cover. It can be a bit see through and don’t worry about the brightness of it, it will be covered.

After you have applied the lipstick you have to wait for it to dry up and set in. When that is done you start applying foundation, take a click of it on your pad/brush and draw lines close to your jawline, the shadow is the worst to hide there for Michelle, might not be for you, but it gives you a better way to work it up.

Start padding it in, no lines with the brush/pad you are using, if you start pulling it upwards or down it will take the lipstick with it and integrate it with the foundation and it will be even harder to hide the shadow. Just pad it in gently, the line you drew will have to up towards your cheekbones, half way over your chin and mouth arc, and then down over your throat (this will be hard to not make a big foundation line, but do not worry, you will fix that after you have gotten your face on).

You do it on both sides, after you have successfully covered your shadow – might take one to three applications of foundation layers you have to start working on your T-shape (forehead and nose), when you have successfully gotten a unified colour for your whole face you can start working on getting it on your neck too. Do not apply foundation to your neck, do it under your chin and jawbone, you will have to pad it downwards.

When that has been done to satisfaction, start trying to remove/pad your neck to make it look more natural, watch out to not remove foundation over your shadow, that will be hell to fix.

I suppose you are done now with the neck, take a look in the mirror, if your shadow is completely gone good job! If not, try and add another layer of foundation (do not use bronzing or darker powder on your 5 o’clock shadow, it will make it stand out again sadly). But you can very simply take a matte nude powder alike to your foundation to remove shine, just brush very gently and very soft over everything to not remove foundation and your cover lipstick.

You are done! Now you can do whatever you want, welcome to the world of make up!

Michelle welcomes you to the side of the magic!

Four things!

I am working on really heavy subjects blogposts at the moment (taking a couple of minutes every day typing down in each different post to publish them in a row later), so lightening up the mood a bit with a small list. I will write four things about me in any kind of category! Woopwoop… fasten your seatbelts.

Four places I have lived at:

  1. Älghult
  2. Joure
  3. Reduzum
  4. Makkum

Four places where I have worked (in this case two):

  1. Restaurant Kristina
  2. Online translator for different companies

Four things I enjoy watching:

  1. The Walking Dead
  2. Anime~
  3. Interior design programs
  4. Anything – we use Google Chromecast, so sometimes Youtube, sometimes Crunchyroll and sometimes plain Netflix

Four things I love to eat:

  1. CAULIFLOWER!
  2. Potatoes
  3. Tomatoes
  4. Corn

Four things I enjoy doing:

  1. Gaming
  2. Writing
  3. Drawing
  4. Discussing on the Internet (I am a really shy person in real life, only my closest friends will endure my rationalism unless it comes towards very offensive subjects as homphobia, I will start debating it with any random – says the gutless “social justice warrior”)

Four things I enjoy drinking:

  1. Juice
  2. Tea
  3. Oatly milk (vegan Swedish brand, I love there mango/pine apple and chocolate milks, will try their natural one for ice coffee!)
  4. Coffee (not that often anymore though)

Four places I have been to:

  1. Gothenburg
  2. Amsterdam
  3. Sneek
  4. Borgholm

Four things I would love doing in the future:

  1. Go to Japan with Michelle
  2. Take our bikes and just bike around in the Netherlands (sightseeing with a picnic basket, sounds wonderful!)
  3. Moving to a different place and/or new house
  4. Marry Michelle with both us wearing stunning wedding dresses

Aaaaand that was the end of the list! I hope you had fun reading, or at least got some “oh I did not know that!” thoughts.