Amsterdam & new manga!

We have been ordering clothes, make up and manga all around this month. Received a whole lot of money and still incoming more. 300~ from my zorgtoeslag (“care allowance” from the money I pay to my insurance, it is kinda like getting huurtoeslag – “rent allowance”, toeslag*) and incoming vacation money this future week.

*toeslag – to put it simple, you get a percentage back for rent and insurance that you pay. Our rent here is 380 euros and we get back 180 euros per month for our huurtoeslag.

So we ordered a lot of nice clothes for Michelle – both that she can wear right now and some she can wear after a couple of years on HRT. We also bought a new fabulous mascara which is absolutely amazing, the company is sadly not vegan but it is cruelty free (Charlotte Tilbury false eyelashes). We bought some eye shadows too, can’t remember from where now.

Obviously I jumped the gun and bought a bulk of manga, I am not even done! I have four volumes of a completed manga to buy when our vacation money hits too. I bought four volumes of Suki-tte Ii Na Yo – also known as Say I Love You in English (it is hella weird to look up manga and anime by their English names, at least for me) – and four volumes of Citrus. Citrus were ordered first but the first and second volume was out of stock so they have to backorder it, baaah, it is taking a lot of time. But I already got my other, and the next manga collection I am going for is The Earl and The Fairy.


We went to Amsterdam today, for an intake at the gender dysphoria clinic. We were not in the middle of Amsterdam – a bit sad – but the hospital there was huge and bustling with both life and colour. Very vibrant!

The wait time after this now is so long, she also has another appointment at another gender dysphoria clinic (which I mentioned in another post) and we have decided that if she does not hear antyhing from the clinic in Amsterdam before July she will go also go on an appointment at the other clinic, they might be faster at getting it done. She is tired of waiting, she has waited her whole life for it already. I can understand her frustration, you want it now obviously and not later when you aren’t as pass-able.

We saw a lot of genuinely interesting people at the clinic waiting room, i know there is a lot of discussion about FTM not being so outwards and talkative about it, but we saw more FTM than MTF there – at least at the time we were there.

Nails and cutie!

We did some nail manicure for Michi today, forgot to file them down though, so they have the jagged edge from biting them still, but they look nice with the really baby pink polish and glitter.

We also tried a different hairstyle, a semi-high pony tail with only bangs and a bit of pulled out hair, might try another style next time~.

“Look at the hair on my fingers, time to get rid of them!” – Michelle 2016

Social Exhaustion…

Been out all day almost to eat dinner and celebrate my belate birthday with Mich’s mother and her husband, and their two doggies. We went away around 15.30 and came home around 20.30, and now we are playing Diablo 3 together with Faye, Ashe and Crool. Sadly you can only be four in a group.

Did make up for Michelle today, it might have been because my hands were sweaty or the room was very warm/humid so the foundation powdered up a bit, but blending it a bit more helped. I naaaaailed that fucking eye liner though, looks good on both eyes. I get better and better at make up, which makes me able to use more techniques on Michelle which makes her in turn happy which makes me happy!

I am so tired after interacting with so many people today, so I am just a bit silent and just listening to people talking, it is quite soothing.

We drank wine, both white and red, very good quality and taste. We ate also a vegetarian dish, with a lot of vegetables!

Mich was very cute today, her jeans were right on point, couldn’t stop touching or sneaking glances at her little behind.

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Mich has a new haircut!

She has always been very cute, but now it is even more cutesy. Her hairdo looks really great and the barber was a good sport about it. Might even make her our regular barber! She saw no issue of cutting a more feminime hairdo because hair is just hair to be honest and she said Michelle shouldn’t be afraid of such things, it is 2016! But we all know that even if it is 2016 if you live in a smaller town there is backlash everywhere, we live in just a bit bigger town so no one really knows each other here, they might have seen you but they do not keep tabs which is great, we lived in a smaller area before where everyone knew that I was not Dutch and who I was, same with Michelle.

We even paid a cheaper price instead of full price, instead of 30 euros we paid 18 euros, nice guy barber!

The hair looks great and the new foundation looks awesome, it covers the five o’ clock shadow from the beardgrowth, which Michelle can’t wait to laser, it isn’t a huge shadow though, but it is there and we finally found a foundation that covered it.