New shoes!

Michelle’s new shoes arrived, yay! And my manga, volume 2 “Citrus”. So now the collection does not look that awkward in the bookcase, so instead of 1-3-4 there is 1-2-3-4 now! Awww yes! Still waiting for the volume 1 of “The Earl and The Fairy” though, but it will come when it will come.

The shoes look really nice, and they did not pinch at all when she was walking around. One smaller heel and one a bit bigger, so now she has four different shoes with different height heels on. She has to train a lot to be able to walk naturally in heels, pretty much everyone does. I remember my first time, I just strapped on my sisters 15cm high heels and waltzed around, I think I sprained my foot the first time because I sidestepped and the heel just went to the side making my foot twist.

Well, either way she will not learn the hard way (she can already walk pretty good in them, no bending of the knees or walking with your toe-plateau first) but just gotta make it look a bit more natural, as if she was born with heels on!

Amsterdam & new manga!

We have been ordering clothes, make up and manga all around this month. Received a whole lot of money and still incoming more. 300~ from my zorgtoeslag (“care allowance” from the money I pay to my insurance, it is kinda like getting huurtoeslag – “rent allowance”, toeslag*) and incoming vacation money this future week.

*toeslag – to put it simple, you get a percentage back for rent and insurance that you pay. Our rent here is 380 euros and we get back 180 euros per month for our huurtoeslag.

So we ordered a lot of nice clothes for Michelle – both that she can wear right now and some she can wear after a couple of years on HRT. We also bought a new fabulous mascara which is absolutely amazing, the company is sadly not vegan but it is cruelty free (Charlotte Tilbury false eyelashes). We bought some eye shadows too, can’t remember from where now.

Obviously I jumped the gun and bought a bulk of manga, I am not even done! I have four volumes of a completed manga to buy when our vacation money hits too. I bought four volumes of Suki-tte Ii Na Yo – also known as Say I Love You in English (it is hella weird to look up manga and anime by their English names, at least for me) – and four volumes of Citrus. Citrus were ordered first but the first and second volume was out of stock so they have to backorder it, baaah, it is taking a lot of time. But I already got my other, and the next manga collection I am going for is The Earl and The Fairy.


We went to Amsterdam today, for an intake at the gender dysphoria clinic. We were not in the middle of Amsterdam – a bit sad – but the hospital there was huge and bustling with both life and colour. Very vibrant!

The wait time after this now is so long, she also has another appointment at another gender dysphoria clinic (which I mentioned in another post) and we have decided that if she does not hear antyhing from the clinic in Amsterdam before July she will go also go on an appointment at the other clinic, they might be faster at getting it done. She is tired of waiting, she has waited her whole life for it already. I can understand her frustration, you want it now obviously and not later when you aren’t as pass-able.

We saw a lot of genuinely interesting people at the clinic waiting room, i know there is a lot of discussion about FTM not being so outwards and talkative about it, but we saw more FTM than MTF there – at least at the time we were there.

Two options

Oh, awkward, we got a big envelope – quite heavy in weight – today or yesterday, we picked it up today from our hall way floor, yes we are not down there that often, and it is another appointment at the other trans* department (Netherlands have two different ones, one in Amsterdam and one in Groningen) about another appointment.

It is an appointment where if she goes she can start everything immediately, but she went there the first time before we met in real life and they declined her based on her five o’ clock shadow (which you can not do anything about if you yourself do not have any foundation knowledge, which she did not) and they told her: “obviously you are not transgender, you are not even trying”… so she does NOT want to go there based on that memory. So her usual doctor prescribed the hormones instead, she did not know what else she could do – I think it was more or less a thoughtpattern of if Michelle did not get help there was a suicide risk. Which I know it was.

So she can pick and choose now where to go, but we decided Amsterdam anyway. Because that memory is still haunting her. And who doesn’t want to go to the capital? Woopwoop, never been there so will be fun to check it out! Might move closer to it in the future, but right now we will have to settle for once a month. Sometimes our help person will driveu s, sometimes Michelle’s mother and sometimes we are going to stay over there at a hotel. Will have to ask our neighbor to be a catsitter, but it will only be two days then.

This month we are getting our vacation money, we will be selling our fridge to Michelle’s mother and her husband, and buying a smaller one which we can have up in the kitchen. We are also getting their old oven/stove, because they are renovating their whole kitchen into a completely new one. So cool!

So we got a lot going on right now, I have already bought four volumes of a yuri/shoujo ai manga, hihi. I got plans when the vacation money hits I will buy four volumes from Suki-tte Ii Na Yo (Say I Love You) and the volumes are three to six, gotta continue on the collection. Then when we sell our fridge I will buy the complete four volumes of The Earl and The Fairy!

And Michelle will be buying clothes, shoes and a new computer chair. We have already invested in a bunch of summer clothes for her, going to get them this week!

Yay, my manga arrived!

The usual postman dropped them off together with Mich’s new jacket.

Say I Love You (Suki-tte ii na yo) vol 2
Kisses, Sighs and Cherry Blossom Pink (Kuchibiru Tameiki Sakurairo)

Today we are going to the barber for Michelle, gonna cut her hair into a more feminime hairstyle, bangs and layer hair will be the goal. Unless we find a good image in one of their books that suits better. Mich is very nervous over it and so am I, we won’t be doing massive make up, the barber will be washing her hair and we do not want some of the foundation to “fall off”. So might just fill in her eyebrows.

Birthday Nela~

Today is the day my mother gave birth to me, the day that we all know as a birthday, the day that is significant because… what? Meh, it is like any other day to be honest. I am just one year older than what I was last year on this day.

I ordered a second batch of manga books for my birthday though! Wihoo! Kuchibiru Tameiki Sakurairo and Suki tte Ii na yo Volume 2! English titles: Kisses, Sigh and Cherry Blossom Pink – Say I Love You Vol. 2. Will show images in next blogspot tomorrow, when they arrive, yay!

I also received “Overwatch: Origins” from Michelle earlier this month and two other mangabooks (which is in another blogpost already). We are going to celebrate my birthday with Michie’s mother and maybe her mothers husband – depends on if he is going biking or not.

Going to the barber tomorrow for Michelle, we are looking into this kind of :hairdo:. With more layers in the hair and bangs ending above her eyebrows. She will look so good!

I have some American friends on Facebook and the links about the public restroom law show me that they are very open-minded, just like most people in Europe – which make me happy. But when you start reading comments, it really… infuriates me how much some Americans really enforce the stereotype that we Europeans have of them: A – they are inbred hillbilly bigots, no matter where they live. B – most religious Americans are 100% A. C – that America is living still in the dark ages. Most comments I see (not only about the public restroom matter) on any kind of topic regarding peoples’ happiness, show that most religious Americans or religious people overall do not wish for everyone’s happiness. And here I thought that religion teaches love and compassion, boy I seem to be oh so wrong.

If I have offended some American readers, I am very sorry, obviously if you are reading this blog you are not the A – type. Sadly this is the stereotype we have, we grew up with this stereotype about America and Americans, and sadly, on public places such as FB/articles/other websites the Americans that scream the loudest really helps to further this stereotype on. I know that a lot of Europeans are not as open-minded and I know that a lot of Americans are open-minded, but in both cases, they are minorities. I would say the European example being the better option out of both.

I have to stop reading 9gag comments at the same time, more 9gaggers than what I want to believe upvoted a comment saying that sexualities are genders. My whole world is crumbling to pieces, I did not know I was this misinformed! Sarcasm aside, 9gag is a fucking shithole.

It saddens me to see that so many people still believe that love is unnatural, that being who you truely are is unnatural and that it is alright for them to comment hideous things about people because of it.

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I can’t even…

Oh my lovely manga!

I got my early birthday gift today, yay! Well, I ordered it, but it is a gift from both me and Michelle… to me. It is this lovely shoujo-ai manga called “Girl Friends” and as soon as I have read both of the collections (two books with like four volumes each?) I will do a reviewer Nela~ about it. I really did not expect them to be thick, my latest manga wasn’t. But apparently I did not read the small part “COMPLETE COLLECTION 1/2”. There are more than just one volume. More to read for Nela and Michie~.

Ate a lovely “chicken” schnitzel burger with a lot of vegetables, tomatoes with salt, so good. God, I love food, since Michelle and I went vegetarian – and I went vegan after a while – she has shown me so much different and wonderful food. I would never have eaten steamed vegetables before, I never imagined that I would eat cauliflower almost everyday (IT IS SO GOOD) and she has opened a lot of doors for me. Also veganism has helped me in defeating my “food” fears and I want to try out everything! I even tried making avocado milkfree chocolate balls, but turns out that I do not like avocado as much as I want to enjoy it.