This woman is a booty godess. Jesus fuck, bootygoals.
Michelle found this nifty little “plug-in” for the computer, it has been so handy with my forgetfulness. Stick-it notes but on your screen, even if I would write it down in a calendar or on a paper I would forget about it sadly. Future plans:
Started playing Revelations Online with Frederik, might be some more in the guild that are interested. Would be fun to play all of us. I really enjoy it, but I still have the gaming curse. I get bored so easily, so do not want to end up overplaying it and get bored of it.
My mood is still being shit, had to ask Renny to leave early today, around 15min. But she was fine with it, very understanding. She just wants to see and check up on me mostly. I am glad that she seems to work with more basketcases like me, that can’t deal with real life. I don’t get how it isn’t tiring. Going to try and change medication or something.
I really hope I am able to sleep tonight. My body is getting used to not sleeping much… I go to bed at reasonable times, I end up just sitting staring into the wall or laying down staring into the ceiling and that is usually when the anxiety grips me. Which makes it impossible for me to relax and sleep. I keep on being overwhelmed by this sense of dread. That I can’t explain. I really dislike not being able to explain it properly. Then when I finally pass out – because even though I can’t sleep, I am deadtired throughout the whole day – I sleep very restless and very little, and my body is getting used to it… I do not know how to combat this.
Today I have felt like not having any kind of social contact, which is one of the reasons I did not want to meet up with Renny. The anxiety and self loathing is right at the surface and it feels like I will say something wrong or untimed and it will crack my all so “cheery” facade.
Oh, on another much lighter note:
We recently discovered a better way of covering 5 o’clock shadow on Michie, and we had way more improvements with it than with just padding on more and more foundation to try and hide it. I will walk you through it step by step, it might not come as news for you but for some that reads it might be a game changer!
First, you need to cover your 5 o’clock beardshadow with a lipstick, a matte one. Now you wonder “but why lipstick?”, apparently there is pigment in the lipstick that will hide the grayish/blueish tone of your shadow really well under foundation. We tried a bright red lipstick, no glitter or shimmer, just a normal one. But I recommend an orange-towards-the-beige one, we had issues with a very pinkish tone with the foundation and had to apply three layers to go back to natural face colour.
It does not need to be a very thick layer, just draw some lines with the lipstick and use a make up sponge or pad to pull it out to cover. It can be a bit see through and don’t worry about the brightness of it, it will be covered.
After you have applied the lipstick you have to wait for it to dry up and set in. When that is done you start applying foundation, take a click of it on your pad/brush and draw lines close to your jawline, the shadow is the worst to hide there for Michelle, might not be for you, but it gives you a better way to work it up.
Start padding it in, no lines with the brush/pad you are using, if you start pulling it upwards or down it will take the lipstick with it and integrate it with the foundation and it will be even harder to hide the shadow. Just pad it in gently, the line you drew will have to up towards your cheekbones, half way over your chin and mouth arc, and then down over your throat (this will be hard to not make a big foundation line, but do not worry, you will fix that after you have gotten your face on).
You do it on both sides, after you have successfully covered your shadow – might take one to three applications of foundation layers you have to start working on your T-shape (forehead and nose), when you have successfully gotten a unified colour for your whole face you can start working on getting it on your neck too. Do not apply foundation to your neck, do it under your chin and jawbone, you will have to pad it downwards.
When that has been done to satisfaction, start trying to remove/pad your neck to make it look more natural, watch out to not remove foundation over your shadow, that will be hell to fix.
I suppose you are done now with the neck, take a look in the mirror, if your shadow is completely gone good job! If not, try and add another layer of foundation (do not use bronzing or darker powder on your 5 o’clock shadow, it will make it stand out again sadly). But you can very simply take a matte nude powder alike to your foundation to remove shine, just brush very gently and very soft over everything to not remove foundation and your cover lipstick.
You are done! Now you can do whatever you want, welcome to the world of make up!
Michelle welcomes you to the side of the magic!
I am enjoying this game, Michelle seems to have fun so I hope it lasts. It is a really pretty game, combat is fastpaced and you feel really strong with your flashy abilities and most of all, you are having fun with it. I spent an entire questchain with Michelle running around and just massacring stuff.
The facial features are gorgeous! The first four pictures are hairstyles I was leaning towards and the last one is how my character currently looks. I am a support, Lightbinder, and I feel immensely powerful! I based my character on Ciri from Witcher 3 – was gonna base it on me, but there wasn’t any haircolours that were bright red. Sad days…
Here are some progress shots of the image I did of my sister, also enjoy the finished result of last post progress photo.
We got appointments tomorrow, two of them in fact, and it will probably exhaust both of us, so hopefully I am not too mentally exhausted to draw some more, we will see! Might type it up what happens and what turned out tomorrow from the meetings, probably, maybe, I do not know.
Edit: After noticing how bad the featured image was in portrait format I will post it next to my sister’s image.
Edit 2: I just noticed my other screen displayed Facebook and my blog, how narcissistic can one be?
I took out my trustworthy pad yesterday and decided to draw, but realized soon after that I am more skillful at getting my ideas out on real paper with a real pencil instead. But I decided to start making portraits with PS and pad instead, it will help me work on my shadowing and will eventually get me to the point of “I can start drawing how it looks in my head”. I also decided to start drawing more outside the computer field, so gotta get down right to it whenever I feel like it. Anyway, here is one portrait I did and a progress picture.